Adventures of Surrogacy Nannying!

Today is January 18th, 2015. In 10 short days I will be in New York at a clinic transferring a baby into my womb. It's not my baby in any way, shape, or form. It's not my DNA. I won't be raising this baby. I'm not going to be Mom to this child. Instead, I'm helping to create a life for a Husband and Wife whom I have come to love dearly! I'm going to be a gestational surrogate. What exactly is a gestational surrogate? Well, I think of myself as a very full-time Nanny for 9 months! I'm going to be an incubator for this little person to grow and develop. I'm housing them just until they're ready to join us in this world! I started this journey about a year ago and am so excited to finally be so close to officially beginning my next chapter as a surrogate. I started taking meds, to prepare my body to carry another pregnancy, on December 29th! I'm currently taking four pills and one injection daily. In just a few short days I'll begin taking a different injection that will assist in making sure my body is the ideal place for this baby to hunker down for the long ride! I've been asked multiple times, "How can you just give up your baby like it's nothing?". First of all, it's not MY baby. This child is not at all related to me. I've only nurtured it in my womb for 9 months. Secondly, while I'm not expecting to walk away from this unemotionally, I am going into this knowing that the baby will not come home with me. I think of it like my Nanny job. I watch two sweet kiddos 10 hours each day and while I love them dearly, I know that at the end of the day, they go home with Mom and Dad. It's the exact same thing with this baby. He/She is not mine and I'm simply loving them while they grow and develop. My older three kiddos do somewhat understand what is happening. They know that Mommy is going to be helping a baby grow in her tummy until he/she is big enough to go home to their Mom and Dad. They know that I'm going to be tired and maybe even sick. They know that my tummy will get bigger and that the baby will be born out of me. They realize this baby isn't coming home with us. They're doing great with it all. They're excited to be able to give this gift to someone else. Everything I do in life, is based on the 'golden rule'. Treat others how you would want to be treated! If I was unable to have children of my own, I would hope that someone would be willing to do what I am doing now. I'm blessed with the ability to be able to carry pregnancies and I'm so thankful for this opportunity to be able to share this with another woman who deserves to be a Mama! Do I think I'm playing God? Absolutely not. Not anymore than someone who chooses to use chemotherapy to treat cancer vs trusting God to heal them naturally. Not anymore than any other women using IVF or IUI to achieve pregnancies. Do I think adoption should be considered first? That's not my choice to make. I know what it's like to want a child made of you and your Husband. I know what it's like to suffer loss and to fear never being able to have a baby that is part of me. I could never tell another woman that her wishes and desires don't matter. That longing to be a Mommy to a Baby that is part of her and part of her Husband is not something that can be overlooked. I'm so excited to be able to give this gift to a woman I have become good friends with. I love this family dearly and am looking forward to that moment when they are holding their child, that is them! I'm so excited to watch them grow into the amazing parents I know they will be! We fly out to New York on our 8th wedding anniversary, January 26th, 2015. We transfer the baby to my womb on the 28th! Prayers sent up, fingers and toes crossed and lucky shoes on, hoping for a successful pregnancy!